Hello Good People,

This is some kind of summer. I think that I’m having a crisis. Or, I want to press the reset button and overhaul my entire life. My birthday is in a couple of weeks. I’m not feeling this way because of that. I’m feeling this way because I’m feeling like I’ve been mismanaging my life and I don’t know what to do to stop it. I’m scared of going another way. I’m used to being lost, unappreciated and hiding from my true feelings. I’m used to not knowing what I want and being fine with going with the flow even when it drifts me far from the shore that I think I want to be on. This summer, I thought that I was going to loose my job. At first, I was crippled with fear. I thought about all the debt that I’m in. I thought about my mortgage and the day-to-day expenses that are getting over my head with a regular paycheck. I started running scared. I was applying for any job I heard about it an the Assistant field in the event that someone tapped me on the shoulder. Than I thought to myself, if I leave before they offer me a package than I won’t be getting what I deserve and I could pay down some debt and live off of that money until the summer ends. I began to fantasize about my days of blogging, doing e-interviews with people that I admire and find interesting, selling t-shirts and bags through café press, writing a screenplay, finally putting my stories together and publishing. Lastly, I want to devise a plan to build my network. I don’t have business success because no one knows me. I’m not meeting eligible bachelors that can lead to the relationship of my dreams because I’m not in the position to meet anyone. I’m not planting the seeds of the fruits that I want in my life. I was going to take two weeks to do nothing and do temp work three days a week. I had my mind wrapped around leaving. Now, I’m not going anywhere. Things have happened that I don’t want to go into over the last couple of months that has changed my attitude about work and my life. I’m taking graduate courses that are showing me that I’m smarter than I thought I was. I can make smart business decisions and my opinion does count. I’m scared because just enough isn’t good enough for me anymore. The picture of what I want my life to be is becoming clearer. I have a lot of work ahead of me. My finances are a mess and I’ve been hiding from them. They are in my e-mail, on my phone and in my face saying pay attention. One of my goals for today is to review the main areas of life: relationships, work, finances, health and spiritual. I’m becoming a new person. This time next week, I will be closer to the shore of my new life.

Stay blessed,
K.M. Abney


This song sums up how I feel right now. What do I want from myself? What do I want for myself? It is an internal battle that only I can fight within myself.

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This is a blast from the past.

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Good morning,

I'm feeling this song.



Have a great day,
Kenya

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Hello Good People,

Long time, no hear from me. I hope that all is well with you. Today is Independence Day. Tomorrow, I don’t have to work. I’m in a happy place. Since the last time I posted, I got an “A” in my class. That is taking me one step closer to my Graduate Degree. My next class is accounting. Recently, I’ve had awake up call concerning my lack of financial skills; this class is right on time. I need the knowledge so I’m looking forward to taking the class. Recently, I read two books, The 10 Laws of Enduring Success by Maria Bartiromo with Catherine Whitney and Queen of Your Own Life: The Grown-Up Woman’s Guide To Claiming Happiness and Getting The Life You Deserve by Kathy Kinney and Cindy Ratzlaff.

I picked up the 10 Laws of Enduring Success because Maria Bartiromo comes across as a very intelligent woman to me. She always seems to have something worth listening to say. The book is full antidotes and great advice for any stage of success. It is timely for the world that we live in. I recommend it.

Here are the 10 Laws:
1. Self-knowledge: Listen to your heart
2. Vision: Plant your dreams on solid ground
3. Initiative: Keep rattling the cage
4. Courage: Be bold, smart and fair
5. Integrity: Do the right thing
6. Adaptability: Stay open to change
7. Humility: Hold on to your humanity
8. Endurance: Build your stamina
9. Purpose: Know what matters most
10. Resilience: Get up and move on

Redbook magazine did a review of Queen of Your Own Life. Since I saw in the library, I decided to pick it up. It was an easy read with a friendly tone. The advice was doable and realistic. The authors shared stories about themselves in this book as well. One of the Author’s, Kathy Kinney, is best known as Mimi Bobeck from the Drew Carey Show. If you feel underappreciated and need a to feel good about yourself this is a good read for you.

Did I mention that I went with my daughter to see Pam Greer at a book signing? We didn’t get my book signed because there were too many people. It was after work and I didn’t feel like waiting in line forever. She was everything I expected: beautiful physically and spiritually. I was glad that we went.

I am thankful for all the men and women that put their lives on the line so I can live my life. I enjoy the freedom to pursue my personal happiness. I hope you feel the same.

Stay blessed,
Kenya

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